nylennod’s blog

we need more stores in this city ... everyone has the same damn thing in this city is all i have to say
you get a car--someone else is planning to buy it after they see that you have it
you get a pair of shoes, top, bottoms, accessories someone gets it too.. eff hate it! good thing i barely see people these days..

eff gotta still plan a freaking bridal shower too.

damn dinner plans better happen next week at crush=)

....getting married....

i can't be the supportive best friend to her. i want to be happy for her decision, but i just cant for some reason. is it jealousy? i doubt it.. i think it's because i know her to well and i know that she isn't ready for the big step in her life. i wish i could tell her how i feel. but there's one part of me that's scared to do so. i know she's happy, but when can i be happy for her?

had my first test today for corporate finance.. and i soo KNOW that i bombed it! it was an open note open book test but i still didnt study.. i need to work my butt off for the next 2 exams...i think having a friend that you know in a class is a bad thing.. you lose focus. i cant lose it right now.. i'm so close to graduating.

i will be turning 23 very soon.. i cant believe how time flies so fast that you never know what's going to happen next. my birthday week will be ruining my workout routine. i'll be celebrating my birthday i think for the whole week of it. it's going to be crazy and hopefully i will have time to go to the gym. i go to the gym four times a week, with doing the expressway 3 times then doing the elliptical and then doing some ab workouts (crunches).

i think this birthday year will be way different from the other ones i've had. well, actually it is.. my birthday day (next fri) will be hectic.. working, prayer, salsa performance for the mayors diversity picnic, and then dinner with friends/co workers. then who knows what we will be doing next.. humpys? i dont know eff it. people are all asking me what the heck i'm doing for my birthday and all i can say is I have no freaking clue. haha

next wednesday i will be having an early bday dinner with 3 married couples that i usually hangout with and i dont have a partner hahah i think i should drag one of my guy friends with me lol, but then at the same time i think its not a good idea.. i think i will just partner up with the little boy thats brandi's kid.

next thursday, ill be having dinner at Simons with the best friend and i have to dress up or else she will get mad at me. i need to be all dolled up just for her..

i also think my mom is planning to do something like to bring at my work haha she always has something to do that will just freak me out but feel special at the same time. i know my mom can be annoying but she can be sweet also. i dont even know what the heck ill be doing with my family for my birthday. i feel bad too. it seems like ive been celebrating my birthday with the family last.

turning the big 23..... gosh and still single haha all i do is check guys out hahha.. as my co-worker said i need to get out of my bubble because i'm just too laid back haha. and plus i dont really go out.. if i do.. id would rather do something else than clubbing....

this is it for now.. enjoy

i spent my 4th of july with the family and some friends.

friday:
my fam and i watched Kung Fu Panda. great movie.. i suggest it to anyone
went to barnes with the fam also
then went to bernies with hazel and tiffany for the Forth-fest that was going on. it was pretty cool and laid back.. then off to some Latin dancing baby!

saturday: step dad's birthday
we had a little bbq for him with some close friends

sunday:
laid back day.. time to relax and sleep.. i went to church then took a 3 hour nap then back to church then salsa dancing=)

the bad thing about the weekend was i didnt do any studying for my test this thurs and i havent even opened the book haha gosh im a bad student!

ahh worked from 730-130 class from 145-345 then back to work from 4-6. Gosh someone please kill me now...
then off to the gym after work. GOSH someone please DO KILL ME NOW. i'm also thinking about getting an ECON minor what the hell am i thinking?? i hate econ.. but heres me thinking about getting a freaking minor.. SOMEONE do kill me now.. eff...
what else? freaking working split days during the fall semester then working full time and school full time.. someone please to KILL ME NOW. ef....... it.
ill try to survive...

it sucks working full time and taking summer school... im surprise im kinda doing it.. but i still need to read read my books.. but ive been so lazy.. i think i would rather read regular story books than text books.. i even bought a new book called "something borrowed" but i cant read it because i have school! AHHH

then the big 23 is coming up for me.. gosh im getting old and graduating next may.. im excited and scared at the same time. i really need to be looking good by may, thats why im pushing my but to go to the gym almost 5 days a week... so i can look good.. ah the things you have to do to look good!

See I try to hide the fact
that I'm am just a fragile individual (So)
I give off this facade that I'm so hard
when in fact I'm far from unbreakable
I'm so afraid to talk and express myself
keeping all my feelin's bottled inside
Of this softer shell that I call my heart
cuz I can't let love back in (Mayday!) again

Oh I wish I knew
Love was cold (Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey)
Before I believed
Cuz I went head on with this storm
Like lightning gone insane

It's way to late now
There's none left at all
So I guess I should feel fortunate
But I dont feel that way
Love's not in my heart
Cuz see love has left me broken
(See love has left me broken like glass)
Broken like glass (gla-ha-hass, gla-ha-hass)
Broken like glass (gla-ha-hass, gla-ha-hass)
Broken like glass (gla-ha-hass, gla-ha-hass) (e-e-eah)
So if you see me you can call me,
if you see me you can call me Misses Glass

Now after all the lying to myself I'm
stuck feeling miserable (memories?)
I had forced myself to be somebody else
making me seem invisible (Oh just see)
See I'm a lover like any other woman
and sometimes I get emotional
And it might seem hard to understand
where I'm coming from
And you might never ever know

Oh I wish I knew
Love was cold (Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey)
Before I believed
Cuz I went head on with this storm
Like lightning gone insane

It's way to late now
There's none left at all
So I guess I should feel fortunate
But I dont feel that way
Love's not in my heart
Cuz see love has left me broken
(See love has left me broken like glass)
Broken like glass (gla-ha-hass, gla-ha-hass)
Broken like glass (gla-ha-hass, gla-ha-hass)
Broken like glass (gla-ha-hass, gla-ha-hass)
So if you see me you can call me,
if you see me you can call me Misses Glass

Gla-ha-hass, Gla-ha-hass
So if you see me you can call me
(See love has left me broken like glass)
If you see me you can call me misses glass

Gla-ha-hass, Gla-ha-hass
So if you see me you can call me
(See love has left me broken like glass)
If you see me you can call me misses glass

Broken like Gla-a-a-a-a-
(gla-ha-hass, gla-ha-hass) a-a-
(gla-ha-hass, gla-ha-hass) a-a-ss, Broken like glass
(gla-ha-hass, gla-ha-hass) nah-oo
So if you see me you can call me (Ye-aheah)
if you see me you can call me-
Misses Glass (gla-ha-hass, gla-ha-hass)
Misses Glass (gla-ha-hass, gla-ha-hass) Oooo
Bro-oo-oken (gla-ha-hass, gla-ha-hass) Bro-oo-oken
So if you see me you can call (you can call me)
if you see me you can call me Misses Glass

today was the day i felt like a total fatty!
i couldnt breath for some reason.. i didnt even eat that much but i felt like i was gonna fall or lose my breath.

i dont even know why i feel happy when i get email's from him. i need to stop it already. i have the kilig factor in me grr. it needs to stop already. i need to get away from it. give it up and he has a gf already. ay nako. guys are so DUMB.. leading women to fall for them.
the guy has the initials of CK 29 year old, american, realtor and plays the base in a band with the initials of TET. I've known him since I started working at the bank and he was my customer all the time. I would almost see him everytime i'm working just walking to their office because its right across from out entrance to enter the branch. the only time i would talk to him was whenever he came in and made a deposit. the the only time i got to talk to him and found out he plays in a band was when i told him i was moving to a different department and i will not be his teller anymore.he also gave me his business card with all of his information in it. he invited me to watch their band play in snow goose and i did and he even flirted with me a little and that's how i was mis leaded.
i saw him yesterday and i said hi then he said "Hey Buddy!" im off on the road again as usual. that moment i just stood there and didnt know what to say.. i still feel kind if awkward just talking to him.

now.. ive been going to the gym almost everyday.. i need to really lose weight before im done with school. i also want to look good for my birthday. who knows? maybe i will meet some men out there haha. then summer school starts again tomorrow. i hate my life sometimes. i'm never taking a break from anything. i wish i could really go on vacation.

i went to lunch with this Realtor yesterday (Monday).
i finally found out that he had a gf
it felt weird going to lunch with him after finding out he has a gf
gosh... hate it when guys lead you on.
he was the type of guy that i would go for too
i guess for now we're just friends (buddies)